Freefalling

Freefalling in the Spirit.
That's what it's like when you let go
 and let God.
 Letting go of the need to control
 the need to know what's going to happen next
 at what time
 and in what place.
 Allowing God to steer the ship you are in
 so you feel the rise and fall of the waves
 without having to cling to the tiller for dear life.
 Free falling in the Spirit.
 It's letting go of all the anguish, pain and disappointment
 you've been carrying around in big black bags.
 Being led by the Spirit
 and blown by the wind
 not careless and haphazard
 but trusting another to guide you to the right point.
 It's being at the top of a water slide and letting go of the edge
 knowing once you start you cannot go back
 even if you tried
 twisting and turning and falling
 but always safe
 always secure that you will end up
 where you are meant to be.
 Freefalling
 It's dying to your own desires
 that are so often wrong and muddled
 in the first place
 and letting one wiser and stronger
 than you be in charge
 of the final decisions.
 Freefalling in the Spirit.
 It's like nothing I've ever felt before.